Blog the Obscure

Well hello there my obscure little blog, long time.
I feel I owe you an explanation as to why I've neglected you for an entire month...
here are my top 3 reasons:

1. This is how I've felt over the last few weeks in regards to having motivation and/or overall energy to do anything above and beyond meeting the basic needs of my son (and that's even iffy) and sometimes myself and Mr. B.

Lately, my M.O. has been eating carbs all day in my bathrobe, napping, listening to Daft Punk and electronica on repeat, and occasionally walking barefoot through the rose garden. This is far from my ush...I normally don't know how to relax but I admit I kindof-almost-sorta like it (although my bigger/better belly pooch disagrees).

2. It's probably best I conserved all that energy, I needed it to prep for 2 interviews, find my lost portfolio-buried in the depths of junk we don't need or use piled in the basement, and deal with the emotional roller coaster ride I've been on the last week.

A week ago the impossible happened: I was offered an interior design position in Spokane. I know, I know, I've been talking so much about moving to Boise, but I applied and interviewed for some much needed practice with no expectation of actually getting it. I was so shocked/excited when I was actually offered the job that I accepted and ordered a cosmic brownie (which I would have anyway-who are we kidding) to celebrate @ The Elk.

The reality settled in a few days later as I met with childcare providers for H...full time childcare providers. As I drove away from one provider's house I imagined the horror of dropping him off with a stranger for a full day away from me and bawled my eyes out the rest of the night. As exciting as designing kitchens and baths was (and if I didn't have a kiddo I would have done it hands down) this decision didn't feel right...it made me anxious, afraid, and uncomfortable...and ultimately it wasn't what I wanted most-to get home.

 

Don't cry for me argentina, since then, I've had a successful phone interview for THE PERFECT entry level design position in Boise and am scheduled for a second interview next week. I'm hopeful for, and most of all, extremely at peace with this prospect. Also very excited to take Hudson daily to spend time with his Granny and my long lost BFF Miss Allyson at the preschool he will attend in Boise.

3. My poor babe has been sick. For the first time in his life, Hudson was really sick. 102 fever, vomit (all over me-fun times), clingy, fussy, can't sleep, SICK! He's on the mend now, but for a few days we did nothing but snuggle on the couch watching Sesame Street and Alice in Wonderland. It was a total bummer...I hate not being able to take away my little one's pain! 

In conclusion: I still love you blog, even if you are mediocre and read by very few one.

Here's hoping for many more completely random posts to come.